Dear God,

I made promises to You, Lord. I'm not letting my emotions take control over everything. True I don't understand You or why all of this is happening to me right now, but God I made those promises to You for a reason. I made those promises to You because I knew those days that I was saved. I knew that I had to make those promises because there were going to be dark and dreadful times full of tests.

Lord, I feel like for a year now I've been exactly in that time.

Lord God, I KNOW YOU LOVE ME. I'm not giving up because You don't give up on me. I don't care what Satan tries Lord, I KNOW YOU LOVE ME. You are truly a righteous and good God, You will never abandon your children.

I know I've said things to You, Lord, harsh things. I ask for Your forgiveness, please forgive me. I'm foolish and prideful. I offer this hate and anger to You, Lord and I ask that you fill my damaged heart with Your love. I want to let go, and let You.

This war inside me has been going on long, I'm not giving up Lord because I know you're not giving up on me.

I choose to be happy.

Promises.

I promise to never stop praying.
I promise to always try my best, and let God do the rest.
I promise to always keep my eyes on the things that are above and the goal, Jesus Christ.
I promise to NEVER forget how much You love me.