charmolypi, joy-sorrow: tears for the woes of the world, and gratitude for God’s mercy.

An exceptional talent at letting go.

Only bad if all you're doing is letting go, but not letting God.

That's called pride, and you only fall farther.

It's always been a constant battle.

Another random thing, ever see photos of your friends chilling during some day that you missed or weren't invited to and just feel a blow of exclusion in your stomach? Maybe that was a bit too extreme of a description, but can you relate?

Man, I need to work on that. Plus, I know there are days where I do that to people, either by accident or on purpose, but mostly by accident.

It's wrong for us to expect too much! We just gotta try our best not to feel excluded, because sometimes people forget or things are just in the spur of the moment, but that doesn't mean they don't care for you or are not your friend. I should know that, haha.

I guess it's a reminder why I try to give my best to whoever I'm with at the moment, 'cause I know at some point in peoples' lives, we all feel a bit excluded.

We're all just looking for that union 100% with God.

"Just because they don't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you with all they've got."

I don't know if this is just me, but has it ever happened to you where you're just doing your own thing reading over facebook and twitter and then suddenly you just see certain names and feel this huge overbearing feeling that certain people secretly hate your guts?

Maybe that's just me.

Damn insecurities.

"Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people are better at hiding it than others." -Tumblr Will Smith

"Just try your best not to feel exluded all the time... =]"

Sometimes I wonder what picture my heart and soul would create. What kind of world could be born.

I imagine 3 things specifically.

An open green grass field stretching as far as you can see with pure blue skies and a cool summer breeze gently flowing through. Sort of like in the beginning of Spirited Away.

A desert with dunes moving like ocean waves in the North Atlantic, with some ruins and old ship wrecks popping out here and there. Like in that scene in Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas when he goes to the goddess Eris's realm at the end of the world to retrieve the Book of Peace.

And lastly, open space with nebulae, galaxies and stars with a Bright Light at the center of it all with floating pieces of ruins orbiting all around. Sort of like the Void in FFXIII-2.

Introvert Extrovert

It's a battle that comes up every now and then.. It's just trying to remind myself that I am loved. By family, by friends, and most importantly, by God.

Sometimes it feels so lonely. I'm different, I'm weird, I'm pretty awkward and insecure although I know I come off as a really confident guy who has it all together (at least to people who don't really know me).. sometimes.. but I know me. I hear all my thoughts. I see all the pictures in my head.

There's a difference between me being alone and me feeling alone. Sometimes I like to be alone, nothing wrong with that. I believe people need times to themselves to think, reflect or just chill by themselves. By what's worst is that sometimes I just feel so alone. And it's funny because sometimes it's the strongest when I'm completely surrounded by people.

I guess I just notice all the differences between me and every single person. How no matter what, I'll never really be in a complete union with people, close friends or even my family because I'm just so.. different. haha

Not that being different is a bad thing though.

In all honesty I understand that everyone is different.

Lately, I feel like I'm starting to lean towards accepting that I'll never feel that 100% union with any other human being and I'll only feel it when I'm with God face to face.

Key word: feel.

I wonder what God's thoughts are on me leaning towards that... I would sure love to hear His input, cause I really need guidance here.

And some assurance.

I just want to trust people. I don't want to hide my heart behind invulnerable walls.

"I will break their hearts of stone, and give them hearts for love alone."

I appreciate these late summer nights alone in my room.

Again... thank you for the reminder, and Thank You for the friend

Shout out to Clarissa Balila

Guarding your heart isn't just with the opposite sex and about relationships, it's about your friends too.


Guarding your heart means staying true to who you are even if your significant other or your friends pressure you into something you know isn't you.

Thank you for the reminder, Thank You for the friend

Shout out to Mikey Raymundo