Friday, October 28, 2011

To hear God through the music.
Through the sound of a piano,
the beauty that lies within things unseen.
Back to the source, back to the original Beauty, the first Beauty.

Truly, it is the Beauty and the Beasts.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

So blessed and so undeserving.

I really pray for wisdom to know the gravity of my sins. Foreal.

I'm sorry God, and I'm so thankful.

Please use me as your instrument of peace.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Deep Thoughts 30 Day Challenge

1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?

2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?

3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?

4. What do you think it means to be in love?

5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.

6. Talk about a recent experience that has effected you greatly and how.

7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?

8. Write about the first moment that comes to your head when you read the words “childhood memory”

9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

10. Did you have a good day or a bad day? Where do you think that defining line was?

11. Do you feel protective over someone?

12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?

13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?

14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?

15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.

16. What are you passionate about?

17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?

18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?

19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?

20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.

21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?

22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.

23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.

24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?

25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?

26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?

28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?

29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?

30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Secret Heart

Life is swell right now. University is sick (except for the early mornings), family is great (sister moved back :D), friends are AWESOME! Mike Mendoza, Tina Balce, Megan Roque, Jeff Ortiz, :') you guys.... HAHAHAHA I never thought I would be a crew with you all lol. Abby Zap soon though? haha

Anyway.

Love?

I dunno. For sure if I'm ever going to date a sister, she's going to be the one. I'm just like that. I don't see the point in dating/courting if I'm not going to marry her and raise a family. Besides, I don't even have a stable career yet, I don't see the point in courting either if I don't have a way to provide for a family. Especially for her. And by her... I need to lay off. If I can't be genuine friends with her first, what then? Right?

And Faith?

It's okay.

I don't know how to define it. To be honest lust has been such a huge question to myself lately. I know I deserve better than this. God deserves only the best. On the bright side Camp Fixated was a success!!! It was really great, I really prayed hard for the participants and the rosaries payed off for sure. Possible future leaders in YFC? maybe.

I was camp servant though along with Celine... so that means we're leading the next camp.

I really don't feel ready. Especially with the way my faith is right now.

Man..