Freedom

There's so much in life to enjoy and be thankful for. Even though we want to be with everyone at one time... we can't. But that's okay, that's what trust is for. We're not like God, we can't be in 2 places at once but it shows even more that we should put our full attention into whoever we're with at the moment.

Sometimes in life, as we all walk this journey, you journey closer with a certain group of people for God knows how long. But while walking with them, enjoy it, take it in, breathe it in, these people are walking with you, keeping you company and they deserve your attention and love. They're walking the same journey as you and maybe later on your paths may diverge, but as long as you know they're moving forward, you'll see each other again at the end. Guaranteed. He promises that.

There's no time to be taking people for granted. There's no time to waste being taken for granted.

Continue to love even when it hurts and you'll grow closer to understanding God's love for you.

Love and pain bro, not love and pride.

"...that's what I had to do, suck all the poison out of my life."

Today was Abby's debut, it was extremely fun and entertaining! Also I hope she had a good time, I really do.

I got her a Beauty and the Beast Diamond Edition DVD/Blu-ray movie and my rose dance song with her was Tale as Old as Time haha.

During my rose dance with her she apologized. And that really hit me, honestly. She apologized for neglecting me. And I apologized back for hating her so much.

Man... it was... refreshing and uplifting to hear. It really was. I guess that's just what I had been waiting for for so long.. an apology. A recognition of the hurt I felt.

I need to have a real talk with Abby and Alo soon. I just want to tie up loose ends and finally I can move on.

I've been taking baby steps, but finally it feels like the poison is finally leaving my life.

Man, I'm done with this hate.

God... have mercy. Please forgive me of my sins.

On a brighter note though, Happy Birthday again Abby :) hoping for the best for you. I know God has great plans for your life.

Someone Like You

Today I woke up home alone.... in the Guevara's haha. Chilled a bit and finished Isaac's cereal then locked up and went home. Practiced a lot of piano and learned Someone Like You by Adele on the piano then got ready and bussed it to OLGC for creative practice for conference. Bought that orange flavoured Arizona Tea then chilled a bit at Grace's house with Rocky, Gylian, Kaye, Lorryzel, Joseph, JP and Grace then went to the practice. I wanted to take Jerome's workshop at PT but oh well. Creative practice was sick, memorized my lines haha. After got dropped off by Vince in Fleetwood because I couldn't go to Alo's yet for Abby's cotillion practice since he was at Gio's so Ronn picked me up and we went to join Nessa, Monica, Paddy, Max Ammo, Uk, Ruiz, and Lorry, Rocky and Gyl at Red Robin's. I just fed off of their bottomless fries haha.

After all that, went with Paddy, Max Ammo and Nessa, dropped off Irv then Paddy dropped me and Nessa off at her house. Chilled a bit and talked about life in general and people and why people hated certain people and how we're against it lol. Eventually went off to Abby's cotillion practice at Alo's.

I felt really hostile and I could feel my anger and hate building up again towards them... it was pretty bad...

Nessa had to pick up her sis but lost her keys, a lot of searching and after awhile she eventually got a ride from Kevine to get another set of keys. Turns out they weren't in the car so we will never know where her keys went...... dun dun dun.... :/

Anyway, the point of this post is to actually just honour my last hours of today and how it ended with my real talk with Vanessa.

I really needed it.

I feel a lot better right now but I know that if I want to make this feeling of peace permanent I'm going to have to talk Alo and Abby again...

man.... Vanessa, if you ever read this... Thank you. You're a good friend. I don't want to take you for granted unless God says our paths have to part for a bit.

But ya, all in all today was an awesome day and I praise God for that.

Anyway, going to bed now, thanks again to Vanessa for the real talk and again, Thank You, God, for friends.

Please Lord, help me to be a better friend. Help me to let go of these grudges.

Thank You, God, for life.