"I didn't change, I just found myself."

Reflection

I may not know enough and I may not feel anything, but what drives me is my faith. And faith itself is a grace from God, a divine gift, something above humanity just as God is.

You lost a facebook friend.

I think what bothers people the most when they lose a facebook friend, or a tumblr follower, or a real life friend or whatever, is that it makes them afraid of losing people they actually care about.

Sure maybe you didn't even know the person who unfollowed you on tumblr but it still makes you insecure. Am I boring? Am I not original enough? What is it about me that would make you choose to break off a connection with me?

No matter what, even with all the other 2839847+ people loving you in your life, you worry over the one that left. Why? Maybe because you're afraid that out of the other 3249342 people that love you, some of them may, in some way or the other, hold the same view about you. They just don't show it or they overlook it.

But still, it's a risk that they too just might leave because of this unknown flaw.

In the end, it all comes down to trust and who really is worth fighting for.

Sometimes you just gotta let go, because it honestly doesn't matter.

Continue on the search for who you are. You'll find what and who matters most to you, when to let go, and when to keep fighting.

God bless!

You have to learn how to fly if you want to go to heaven.

Freedom from the chains of this world is found only in Him.

Jesus said He is the way, the truth and the life.

Phew, I'm tired. Today I sinned, today I messed up, today I loved, today I was reminded of His grace.

I want to fly. I want to be free. I want to be free to love.

God is already victorious.

I'm coming home, I'm coming home

I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes

I guess so

I guess what hurts most is that I always hear these things about how "the suffering will end soon" or "the light is just around the corner" or "these days will end soon and the sun will rise" and yet my life doesn't seem to apply to those. Now I know those aren't the exact quotes but you get what I mean and am referring to right?

I mean, my life is great, it's wonderful, it's magnificent and I've learned so much from God...

But my suffering? My dark days? How are those words of advice supposed to help me when it was my choice to bring the darkness in..... you know..?

What do you do when the suffering is self-induced? No I'm not lonely, no I'm not hungry, or cold or sick or poor, but I'm lost in the most subtle of ways.

Sin.

I'm convinced God is not the One to be blamed, but only myself.

And I guess that's why it hurts because this suffering, this "loss," is all my fault. It was brought on with my own independent decision; my own free will.

Taller Better Stronger

Growing, maturing, changing, living. Life is swell as of right now, minor things because of other people and because of myself mostly, but other than that I am growing, maturing, changing and living.

Praise God, none the less. Either in complete joy, calm days, or suffering, God is good all the time.

Here's to the future!

The moments when you never knew you would get close to certain people.

Mysteries of God for sure. :)

I think I want to be a priest.

Even in my lowest, praying and sinning right after, even wanting to just get away from this faith, even wanting to just deny it, leave everything and willingly plunge into a "life" without God...

I just can't deny Him. I can't deny that He's not there. I can't deny that He loves me.

Now I understand that I don't understand His sacrifice, His fury, His heaven, or His unconditional love, or even the hell that was originally created for beings much more stronger and smarter than me, but I know this: I cannot deny Him. I cannot deny His love.

Try as I might, and for once without emotion, and in all rationality.. I just can't deny God. He's real. He is very real. It just makes sense.

And all He asks is that I repent, continue to pray, and to love and forgive as He has loved and forgiven me.

I don't understand nor have the knowledge to understand even 1% of Him, but all He asks for is for faith.

Faith in God first, and everything else, from knowledge and wisdom to joy and love, will fall into place.

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." -Matthew 17:20

Happy Mother's Day, Mom!

Thank you, so much. For everything. I love you with all my heart, mom. I pray for you every night. I'm sorry I'm so bad with words of affirmation towards my family, I know I just gave you a simple kiss and a greeting this morning, but I meant all of it. :)

God bless!

Everytime I think of her.. or Her. I remember why I'm fighting, praying and running in the first place.

God, please grant me understanding and self-control.

Lust

JUST RUN.

Stop trying to fight.

JUST RUN.

Last night when I got slain…

I heard God asking me why I was looking so far in distant places for Him.

He told me to just look into my heart.

So many people love me.... So many people care about me....

God, what am I doing? Where am I going?

So that's it then? No explanation? Just smother everything in love...

Yet it feels so good. Real good.

Please God, I thank You for this love, but, I need to settle this for real. Because if I can't praise Your name in joy with a full and whole self all focused on You alone during worships, then I feel like there's something wrong. That's just me though, I trust in You.

I trust in You.

Just before the Surrey 2 Seniors Dance performance, I got spiritually slain so I wasn't able to perform it...

But what I realized was how relevant that was to my life.

It's true, only the people closest to my heart see me perform my fullest.

I want to further my relationship with God.

God, please don't make this an emotion, please help me to make this a reality.

Dear God,

I don't want to go down a separate path...