My faith is there for sure, but where it goes into I'm not sure. I feel like half of me is being called to leadership in YFC but my other half is calling to get my life together.
I'm almost 19 and I don't know how to drive and I've never had a job yet.
My life has been AWESOME though, in all honesty!
It's just... now that I'm trying to do both, I know that once I work, my service may suffer. And not to mention school is starting soon.
And then there's always the part of me that has the sort of enmity to YFC and its system and the way things are run. And that little dent just pushes me even more to just... leave.
But I'm not leaving because I have lost faith or anything, I strongly believe in the love of Jesus Christ, it's just that I really do need to get my life together!
And if I can't have both without one pulling at the other, I honestly think I might shake off YFC. It's been a heavenly ride with YFC anyway, so maybe this Conference is my last bet.
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