To observe, to listen, to pray, to do the small things, and most especially to love.

As of right now, I feel like that embodies my life's purpose.

My vocation has always been a question for me, but in all honesty most of the time a married life has not really been as up there or prominent as the other two paths. For several reasons I shy away from the possibility of the married life, but ignoring the negative reasons, my positive ones do show a lot of more of just... who I am, I guess!

I've always looked up to people like Mother Teresa, or support characters in your games, books and movies. In playing team based games I've always felt more in tune with being the "healer" or "support" and in playing team based sports I've always naturally shifted to playing defense whether it was soccer, basketball, or ultimate or whatever.

Sometimes I feel like I accuse myself of settling into complacency by wanting to settle down in the background of everything, but when I look at it, and I see all the suffering in the world, I just think to myself: "Someone has to do it."

And so... in all this I hope to become a person in God where I observe His beauty and glory in everything, I listen to the tears and broken hearts of His children, I pray for the world and all its suffering, I do the small things in life with great love, and most especially I love and forgive not just my family and friends, but all of humanity, just as God has loved and forgiven me.

Because of these desires in my heart... I feel like I can't contain that to just my own possible future wife and children. I feel like I care so much about so many people.

But in the end, I still have so much to learn about myself and God and His love. And so, wherever he takes me--marriage, blessed single life or holy orders--I will always be praying for a heart of love, and a life wholly dedicated to my Lord and my God: Jesus Christ.