I've been working everyday in these last weeks of summer. I don't mind though, I had a lot of fun on my trips to Vegas and Calgary and I really need the money to pay off the load of debts I have. But I feel bad because my social life has been suffering. Not in a selfish sort of way of me needing to socialize with my friends, but the fact that I keep turning down my friends who want to socialize. Even if it's on technology like skype, facebook, or text, I keep ending conversations abruptly because I need to sleep.

I guess what makes it worse is that Final Fantasy XIV just came out this week so obviously my first thoughts when I get home from work is to close myself up in my room and play. Whenever a new game that I love comes out, my introverted side takes over and I like to be alone playing my games. I don't like to be interrupted by anyone haha, not even on technology, unless though you're playing with me. It's more so like that though because I don't want to be rude in the first place by giving people only a fraction of my attention while I game it up.

But in the end, I feel like I'm being rude either way by not responding to them, or giving them short half-assed conversations that end abruptly as I head off to bed. It's like I pity talk with them rather than me talking with them because I'm fully ready to initiate and engage in conversation. And no one appreciates pity talking.

Anyway, random late night honesty rant. Good night.

Please forgive me for this time, friends. Ya'll are my homies. My introverted side just needs attention and alone time, especially after an extroverted filled day at work.

I hope you'll understand.