Washing over all our sin

I feel like my relationship with God is a constant roller coaster.

Before, everything was emotion, and so my spiritual warfare was with my feelings.

Now, thanks to taking Philosophy in high school, my faith now includes reason.

...And now my spiritual warfare is also through the ideas, logic and rationality of man.

I feel like I'm passed that desert phase (although I'm afraid to say if that's for sure) but now I'm in this new phase of constant ups and downs. Like God is finally making His way more into my life fully in ALL areas. But it's just.... Sometimes I want to cry no joke. Oh man. It came out. It's just all this thinking, it's so tiring, honestly. I'm so tired. And I'm so sorry.

I feel like the spiritual warfare is ravaging my heart and my mind. It hurts... more than I take it for.

I just want to go Home. I just want to be with Him.

I'm so tired. So, so, tired.

Btw a slap to my face today, a really interesting slap:

"But I realized after that God doesn’t always work with karma. Just because I didn’t do anything wrong doesn’t mean I don’t deserve to be taught a lesson. Maybe my life was yearning for more knowledge therefore God gave me an obstacle for me to learn from. And I really did learn." -Kim Nguyen

Praise God for working through her tonight. I'll be praying for her as always.

God.. you're funny. I know You love me. Please cleanse me from my sin.

NTS: Matthew 11:28-30

God Bless