Sometimes I think about her.

They say that psychologically a crush only lasts 4 months. But heck, I've been thinking about her for a couple of years now. Ever since we first started talking those Wednesdays at DBYC after PT.

They say if the thoughts last longer than 4 months, you're already in love. I doubt it though.

I don't even have any actual passionate feelings for her. I just... think about her. Every now and then. And when life gets busy or exciting, I don't think about her at all.

I wouldn't say that's love.

But then again... I don't even know how to love a girl to be honest. I'm good at being friends with them apparently, and that's only because I want to be friends. But when it comes to something more than that?

Hm. A lot of walls, a lot of factors in the way. I'm definitely not myself. But when I am myself, it just feels right to be her friend. Nothing more.

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