I was always making up excuses and explanations for it. And I was almost always basing my friends, crushes, faith, future decisions and vocations off of it.

Maybe I was too scared or prideful to admit it before in the past. Or maybe I'm just changing. But nothing really makes me feel more weird than knowing that I've come to a comfortable acceptance of it:

I feel lonely.

And I feel good coming to terms with accepting it. I guess I have faith knowing that this is a natural part of life, and maybe a phase as well. I don't feel lonely in a depressing sense like I have no friends or family. That's not it at all.

But I just feel lonely a lot.

Desires of the heart.

Am I yearning for You? Or am I yearning for her? Or both? Am I just being selfish?

Gee, I don't know.

Good night world; there's some late night honesty for ya.